you know it's just the way i am

[undergrowl]

koushuu okumura

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CONTACTS ( ooc use )

 ★ SAWAMURA

 ► ANYA

 ► KUROSAKI

 ► MATSUOKA

 ► STRIDER

 ► YAMAZAKI

 ► YOHANE

 ► YUKINE

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Comments

[secare]

how can you be sure?
she probably hates me now

[undergrowl]

For starters, Anya is physically incapable of hating anyone.
You know that as well as I do, no matter what you're feeling now.
But still, you're one of her important people, even if she doesn't feel the same.

That doesn't mean that you can't feel hurt right now, though.

date swap to 6/29 orz

[secare]

i don't know about that
i think
all of her friends are her important people
there's no difference

( it's not a bad thing, but it feels like a horrible thing right now. )

you're good beeb

[undergrowl]

[ A long beat - it's one part knowing his service isn't great in their elevator, one part considering that. ]

No, maybe not.
And that's great, it means she's a good person, with a lot of friends.
But it doesn't really feel good sometimes. Not when you feel more than a friend would.

[ And suddenly they're in the same boat, and his heart hurts for Yukine more than ever. ]

WHAT THE CHRIST. i meant 7/29. I AM SO GOOD AT THINGS!!!!!

[secare]

it sucks
everything sucks

god
why the fuck
did i think this was a good idea

I LOVE YOU ANYWAYS!!!

[undergrowl]

Because we don't have control of our feelings.
Which aren't stupid to have, mostly, usually, but they're fucking awful.
Like, really awful.

<3 <3

[secare]

could have just kept it to myself!
i let myself think that it's fine
like idk
everything would work out

kind of arrogant i guess
but
i dunno
i don't want to feel like this anymore

[undergrowl]

There's nothing wrong with that.
And I don't really think it's arrogant?
We just want things to work out for us, and that's
Human, I guess.

I'll be there really soon, ok?
And then we can figure out a way to stop feeling like this.

[secare]

i keep wondering
how i could have done it better
i should have figured out her feelings
instead of
all this
ugh
U G H

okay
i'll be waiting
thank you

[undergrowl]

You wouldn't have been able to know without asking, and even if you didn't confess...
It probably would still hurt.
[ Wow this is sure going to come full circle and bite Koushuu in the ass, ain't it. ]

You'd be there for me if I was in the same position.
It's what best friends do.

koushuu....

[secare]

i don't know
i
i don't know
i keep wishing there was easy answer for what i was supposed to do

of course
of course
i'll always be here if you need me

welp

[undergrowl]

I wish there was one, too.
But there just
Never really is, I guess.

And I'll always be here for you, you know.
No matter what happens.
Memories or whatever Retrospec throws at us, or whatever we get into ourselves
You're my best friend. That won't change.