undergrowl | you know it's just the way i am

[ this whole moment feels totally surreal, to be honest--koushuu's holding his hands, which is weird in its own right, but he's also admitting to the fact that apparently he has feelings for eijun. no one's ever confessed to him before, so he's not really entirely sure how to handle it, but he knows that it's positive. he feels happy, not upset he might leave someone behind because of baseball, because--

koushuu loves it as much as he does. their whole relationship has been built on a battery, and the trust and rapport that they started in middle school has led them to this, now. he's never really thought about koushuu romantically until this very moment, either, but now? now it feels like he's opened his eyes, to the just barely pink color on his cheeks, to the bright blue of his newly returned eye color, to--well, his insults. rude. ] Hey! Wait--you told oniichan, and you didn't tell me?! Okumura!!

[ he's almost pouting, big puppy eyes sparkling with it--it's an overall childish expression, because there's still a smile tugging at his mouth, like he can't stop it from happening. ] And it's been that long?! Man, I'm a jerk! But--hey, you're a bigger one, you could've said something!!

[ he squeezes his hands, again, and this time, pushes his fingers between koushuu's to lace them together. he's always been tactile, aggressively so, and apparently having that wall between them down makes that about a hundred times worse. (better?) ]

Are you kidding me? Of course I didn't tell him. He figured it out himself. [ And then they never talked about it, because Ryousuke Sawamura could simply smile ominously and that was enough of a conversation for him on the average day. Koushuu can read between the lines, just like everybody else except for Eijun. Yukine figured it out without him having to tell him - although he admitted it - Anya, Mao, Chiyo...

Literally, pretty much everyone he's known since he met Eijun has known that he's had a stupid, big crush on him. And his cheeks flush a little more with color as their fingers lace together, but he doesn't... pull away from him at all. Instead, he curls his own tighter, tethering them both there because he's not sure what to do with himself otherwise. ]

Baseball was more important. [ It's a simple admission, and blunt. ] I didn't... [ Koushuu makes an agitated noise, wolfish as always, before muttering something in French under his breath - the one language they don't share, which leaves him ample room to bitch when in Eijun's presence. But, he continues anyways. ] I didn't want something to happen to our battery, if I told you. That was more important than any feelings I might have had.

[ at this moment, eijun's having a very sudden realization. yukine talked to him a few months ago, about dating someone who liked baseball... you can almost see the realization across his face, big brown eyes getting wide for a brief second. ]

Everyone really did know... [ of course, because he's eijun who doesn't believe in thinking quietly to himself, but at least it's kind of sweet? he sounds genuinely touched instead of horrified or mad or anything else, just sort of half smiling to himself and looking down at their hands. ]

Koushuu!! [ he says, rather loudly, squeezing their hands tight. ] Even if something bad happened I still would've been part of your battery!! [ he gives their hands a little shake, as if intensifying that. ] And now we just get to get even stronger, right? Cause we get to get even closer!

So--we're gonna date, right? [ and there it is. blunt and bullheaded and straightforward: leave it to sawamura eijun to just spit it right out. ]

[ As the realization sinks in, Koushuu makes himself roll his eyes, for his own sake, because of course he finally understands everything. Or, well, a lot of things at the very least. He can predict his batterymate to a degree, but some things are just truly lost on him. How his mind works a lot of the time? One of those things.

But he jolts a little when he shouts his name, exasperated with both Eijun for his volume and himself for being startled (and for his heart doing a weird flipflop when he calls him Koushuu). But he squeezes his hands to still them, trapping Eijun's thumbs with his own to get a little control of his movements. After all, someone has to rein him in. ]

You would've, but it could've been awkward - [ And that sure grinds to a halt. Blunt, bullheaded, too honest in a genuine way. Koushuu's face floods with actual color, now, but he ducks his head and sighs instead of saying something biting. ] ... is that what you want?

[ ever a tactless idiot, eijun blurts out: ] You're blushing! [ because how could he not? koushuu's like, a million shades lighter than eijun, and it's so obvious. it feels like yukine and anya and everyone opened his eyes up to this whole new side of his batterymate. he's cute, now that eijun kind of thinks about it.

so, as honest as anything, he smiles at him. ] Yup. Is that what you want?

[ very seriously, as he's squeezing koushuu's hand, because okay, he might be interested in him suddenly, but there's a certain relationship of theirs that transcends any sort of romance or friendship. ] As batterymates, we gotta be honest with each other, after all!

[ Koushuu's lip curls the second Eijun points out the fact he's blushing, though it just - makes his face color darker, an unfortunate side effect of his mother's genes. Not everyone can be a tanned farm boy, okay? ] Shut up.

[ There's minimal heat, though, as he definitely doesn't let go of his hands and stares back at him. Honest, huh. He's spent the years since he was like - twelve not being completely honest with himself or with Eijun. He's known, of course, but he took so long to tell him the truth when usually he doesn't hesitate to say what's on his mind.

But now, here it is. Right in front of his face. ] ... yeah, we're gonna date. I want to.

Great!! [ and, true to form, eijun brightens up like the sun--he's smiling, ear to ear, eyes lit up, looking delighted with this brand new development.

he doesn't really know what to do with it, though. he's not sure what the next step is, so he just squeezes koushuu's hands again, nice and tight. ] Then... we have to go out to dinner, or something, right?! And dress really nice! And I can bring you flowers and stuff!!

[ someone who watches too many hallmark movies.png ]

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