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you know it's just the way i am

koushuu okumura

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i'm starting to think
you know me too well
because it's getting harder to catch you by surprise

are you
gonna talk to eijun?

I'm very hard to catch by surprise, apparently.
But you can predict me better than anyone else that we know.
Probably better than my parents, even.
So.

[ Three texts in rapid succession, one line after the other, before he sends the rest in a fourth: ]
No
Maybe
Merde I don't know.
Mao suggested faking a relationship with someone to see what his reaction was, which is right out of a romcom and also basically a lie.
But I can't lie and say a part of me didn't consider it.

stop stop
i can only love you so much koushuu
but when you say stuff like that
the points rise anyway

okay that's
fucking stupid
don't do that

i barely know eijun and he'd probably try to react positively
regardless of how he felt
because he'd wanna cheer you on
that kind of thing is just begging to get your feelings hurt

I know, I know.
I said a part of me, not all of me.
There's still enough common sense in me that I didn't say yes.
[ Leaving out the fact he said he'd consider it, but it's been a halfhearted thing. ]

Eijun is too stupidly genuine for that to work out.
Something he and Shouto have in common, apparently, based on how things are going all around right now.
And I'm not

I'm not a liar.
I can't do that to me, or someone else, or to Eijun.

i know
koushuu you're a really good person
you're one of the best people i know
basically my family

but you gotta bite the bullet

i
talked to anya
after everything
even though she didn't feel the same
she said she felt it was dumb NOT to tell her

eijun might want to know regardless
he's got a kind of opinion of you
where he couldn't even believe you liked someone
so i doubt he could ever imagine you'd like HIM
he might not get it unless you just tell him

After what you went through, it feels like I really am being stupid.
And I know that. Have known that, I guess. Even before you confessed to Anya.
Because you managed to do it. And as awful as it was to do it, after all this time, you've made it to this.

It's just that I could count on one hand the people that I've been *that* honest with on one hand
About how I've felt.
You and Anya being included there
And there's something about telling Eijun that's
I don't know, more than hard.
But he is pretty damn thick, so he... really couldn't imagine. I honestly wasn't subtle when I was telling him, and it sailed over his head.

What if I made a deal with you.

don't compare the situations
it's not fair to you
and you're not being stupid

would you show me?
the conversation that you guys had?
maybe you need someone other than yourself
to gauge his reaction

it's dumb but
i realise that sometimes it's not that easy to figure stuff out on your own
because i guess it's like your personal view gets in the way?
you can't see it clearly

what are you proposing?

It's not so much comparing as it is
I don't know
Just admiring how you actually did it. Despite what happened and how you felt.
And now apparently you're dating Shouto?

[ attachment: like u weren't already stalking this thread before, kimmeh, but for posterity it's being forwarded to yukine ]

I've been thinking about getting people together for a camping trip, before it gets too cold and before Retrospec does something shitty.
But there's also Halloween itself, and he's already hellbent on us matching for whatever trick or treating or parties there are.

But no matter which one comes first
I'll tell him the truth before the end of October.

i know you wanna talk about it
and we will
but let's talk about this first

hahahahahaha
HE GUESSED ME
UNBELIEVABLE
INCONCEIVABLE

AMAZING
DUMB AS A FUCKING ROCK

i kind of think that you should
organise the camping trip
it'll be fun! and honestly just nice to
spend a little time as a group
away from everything else

i'll take you up on this deal
confess before the end of october!!

but if it's a deal
what's my end of it?

I swear to god he's the
stupidest
person that I have ever met.
Not even a rock. A sack of bricks.
An entire brick factory.

I have a headache just thinking about the fact I like him like this.

I'll put something together.
I'll just have to work it around whatever happens with Retrospec.

But I don't know.
A double date, whether it's him or someone else, is the easiest answer I can give you.
What do you want.

your taste is extremely questionable

but for the sake of your own piece of mind
let me give you the whole conversation
i kind of feel like you might learn something from it

[ attachment: how it all went down ]

if you fail to confess before november
you have to leave this issue to me
and go along with what i tell you

I try not to think about it often.

Fine, I will.
I can't argue with you on that.
Let me read this.

Every time I try to be nice to him, ever since middle school, he asks if I'm sick or something.
I don't know what he expects at this point in our lives.

But this is... good to know.

Good to know that my precious best friend has my back, though.
Even if the subject of your interrogation is dense as hell to your protectiveness.

oh man not me
i think about it a lot and laugh to myself

yea that's kind of what i thought tbh
he seems like he sort of decides his own reality
regardless of what's really happening

it's ok
hahaha
maybe i'll just hit him
until he figures it out

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1/2 you know damn well i stalked that whole thing

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